Monthly Archives: July 2014

Thought Catalog


I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, “Kiss me harder,” and “You’re a good person,” and, “You brighten my day.” I live my life as straight-forward as possible.

Because one day, I might get hit by a bus.

I could be walking down the street one day, blasting Rihanna or Fleetwood Mac, jamming so hard that I don’t see the bus coming. I could be walking with a book in my hand, reading until the very end. I could be paying total and complete attention, imagine the impact before it arrives.

And I’d really, really rather not die with some confusing statement I said sitting in the phone or the thoughts…

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Though ultimately introspective and for my own persxnal reflection, I also wanted to utilize this blog to 1) get back into writing (my dream was literally to be an author/writer for 90% of my childhood – bet a lot of you who know me NOW didn’t know that, huh?) and 2) to share hair/makeup stuff, thoughts on world events/higher education, recipes, anything else that I want because I can. And, I’m really excited because I’ve been getting a lot of ideas in the past couple of days and now it’s all about not being lazy, putting in the work, and writing.

Lately, I’ve been making a lot of smoothies for breakfast since I’m home and I have the access to my parents’ fridge and other appliances. I’ve been trying to eat healthier – not just to lose weight but to feel and look better. Smoothies, when made with the right things, are so healthy and so great for you – especially in the morning. Surprising as it may seem, most breakfast foods we all know and love (and if you know me, you know breakfast/brunch is my favorite meal of the day) are not actually the best to eat in the morning – especially starchy potatoes and breads, heavy eggs, etc. Smoothies are great because they provide nutrition, keep you going for a few hours, and they’re easy to digest (exactly what you need in the morning).  Today, I finally discovered the recipe to my new favorite GREEN SMOOTHIE. About time, too because I went through a lot of okay-tasting and some just outright bad smoothies to get to this place.

I literally just threw some things into the Magic Bullet – based on videos I’ve seen before, articles I’ve read, as well as just persxnal experience. And it literally came out to be the best smoothie I’ve made, ever. And I know it’s healthy as hell. Check it out. The amounts are all just approximates because, again, just threw things in to the Magic Bullet and everything can be adjusted to your taste. But truuuust me, this is actually really good. I was surprised, too. And, a lot of these things can just be easily found in any grocery store/farmer’s market!


  • 1 Frozen Banana (in chunks)
  • Handful of spinach (as much spinach as you can squeeze in really!)
  • Half a tablespoon, chopped ginger
  • Chunks of fresh pineapple (as much as you’d like, tbh – I prefer a lot because it masks the ginger)
  • Half a cup, coconut water
  • Tablespoon, chia seeds
  • Splash of OJ
  • Chili/lime seasoning

Just blend everything together – except for the chili/lime and half a tablespoon of chia seeds – until it is as smooth as you like it. Feel free to add more OJ/coconut water if the smoothie is too thick for you. Top it with the remaining chia seeds and sprinkle it with the chili/lime seasoning to your liking.

AND I’M TELLING YOU – IT’S SO GOOD. And good for you, yay! My only complaint is that the pineapple leaves a lot of pulp behind, but it’s easy to ignore because this smoothie would definitely suck without the pineapple. The banana and pineapple are really what hides the taste of the ginger and the chili/lime seasoning just adds great flavor (that was totally my random addition to this smoothie). For reference, my mom picked up the chili/lime stuff at the local WinCo in the bulk spices aisle! WinCo is great for stuff like that. (also picked up the chia seeds in the bulk foods aisle! much cheaper than trying to buy it pre-packaged)

My only problem will be how to recreate things like this once I’m back at school because as of now, I won’t even have access to a Magic Bullet or something akin to it, nor do I have cheaper access to things like coconut water, chia seeds, etc. The one great thing about the San Joaquin Valley is that it is soooo much cheaper than the Santa Barbara area. #bitter

So, step one: I’m currently on the search for a cheap knock-off of a Magic Bullet.

But until then, I’m out and I actually hope to post something about hair care soon. I get so many questions all the time about hair so, I figured why not.


Sometimes, life is really funny and when I least expect it, something amazing falls into my lap.

I have a few really great advisors in Associated Students that I guess I somehow impressed (I don’t know – it definitely wasn’t from this year?! #confused) and one of them in particular has an Indian partner (we’ll call her P) that I had met a couple of times. I guess I must have left an impression because the other day, she messaged me with a job opportunity and not just any kind of job opportunity but one with an amazing Sikh organization: the 1984 Living Hxstory Project.

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The 1984 Living Hxstory Project’s mission is to record the critical year of 1984 through narratives and storytelling. It is beautiful – videos upon videos of folks relaying their experiences of the terror and trauma they faced in 1984. Upon discovering this project, thanks to P, I knew I either had to get involved or keep constant tabs on this organization. Though I’ve always struggled with my identity as a Sikh womxn (while unsure of the existence of a “higher being”), as I’ve grown older, I’ve become to identify closer and closer to Sikhism – even though I’m not quite religious, per se. I guess it’s just the beauty in Sikhism – the importance in community and emphasis in communal living, the abolition of the caste system and sati, the importance of the mother figure, and even the militancy. It’s funny how much I almost “resented” Sikhism when I was younger but it’s almost as if Sikhism just naturally aligns with my values now and who I’ve grown to be. Sikhism is radical as fuck, y’all. I encourage everyone to seriously learn about it. Why else is Sikhism still so heavily persecuted? And, like, fuck – who knew that Sikhs only make up 1.6% of India’s population? I didn’t even know that until my dad told me today! That’s right. One point six fucking percent! There ain’t a lot of us, y’all. I’m a minority here and I’m still a minority there. Weird to think about. It really makes me want to research numbers. How many Sikhs are still in prison from the 80s? How many Sikhs are incarcerated in comparison to others in India? Etc etc.

But, I digress.

Finding this project this summer is kind of perfect timing, though. It all falls in line with the goals I had for myself this summer, in terms of getting to know my own hxstory more as well as working on a few things about myself after a tough year of internalizing a lot of the shit people said about me. I think, if given the opportunity to work for this organization, it will be a humbling experience and I am so excited to just learn. Know hxstory, know self. Not to mention – what a really great way to hone my video editing and graphic design skills. This fellowship is literally made for me.

P has been so amazing, helping me literally every step of the way with my CV and cover letter. Sometimes, I am so taken aback when people show this unabashed faith in me. I really do not even feel worthy and I don’t even get where her faith in me comes from. We’ve literally talked like, twice. I’m so grateful for both P and her partner right now. I’m really blessed to find such great mentors, advisors, and role models in such surprising ways. And, a Desi womxn at that – for the first time, ever. It really is like everything just dropped into my lap at the perfect time.

I guess the universe doesn’t alwaaays hate me. I just hope I get this fellowship now (and lowkey that it pays well because I’m really broke and need to be saving up money).